How ditching the booze can create a 'Happily Ever After!'
I can tell you, well part of the story at least, the other part was that I hadn't yet met my soulmate, but the journey began before I met Ryan, it was how I got to know myself.
For most of my life I have struggled with self-belief. I wasn't confident growing up, although seemingly, on the surface I appear to have all the confidence of a big CAT on the prowl, in reality, it was all just a big ACT.
I have battled with an eating disorder, then once I had tamed that beast (sort of) alcohol became my friend (or so I thought). I didn't have to face up to the reality of who I was and where I was going when I was in the pub with my 'so called friends.' It was escapism. It couldn't last forever if you want to live a long, happy and healthy life.
After a successful year of no alcohol, in 2020 I did a month on and a month off, to see how I could cope with moderation. Anyone who is an 'all or nothing' person like me was never going to moderate, it's just not in my nature. In the end in my month of drinking, I was looking forward to the next month when I wouldn't be doing it, the reverse of what I thought may happen. I wanted the clarity back, I wanted to feel happy and truly myself. In December 2020 I decided that alcohol was going forever, this is what really kick-started my change for life for the better.
A month in, and I was back to feeling confident and free from the restraints of alcohol, which meant that I could focus completely on my future.
Another month in and I was feeling even more confident in myself. I'd lost the alcohol puffiness, my energy levels were ever-increasing and I actually didn't mind looking in the mirror.
Another month passes, and I start to feel that I can move on in my life. Stop being reclusive, do something other than just work. I was back to adventuring as soon as lockdown restrictions were lifted.
Then, I met Ryan, just two people (actually the reality was me, Ryan, his 3 children and my 3 dogs) meeting up for a chat, get to know each other, no agenda, no expectations, neither wanting romance, and BOOM! That day I fell in love.
The 'thing' I didn't ever believe in was a reality, but the fact that I hadn't loved myself, who I really was, because I hadn't known myself, that was what was holding me back from being able to love another.
That, and the fact that I hadn't met Ryan before that day.
So, as much as this blog is celebrating a 'love story' it's not quite the one I lead you to believe in the beginning, in fact, it's the tale of what I had to do, to finally love myself. Until you do that, however are you expected to love another?
Addictions of all kinds take over our lives, they take away our freedom to truly be ourselves.
If you need help with addiction, please get in touch, not only am I a hypnotherapist, but I understand too.
Had I not stopped drinking, my fairytale may not have been told. My wonderful wedding on the north Devon coast may never have happened and I wouldn't be living 'happily ever after' with my handsome prince.
Let your story happen. Re-write your future with a happy ending.
And they all lived happily ever after.....
The End.
BY the way.... I've not had any alcohol since December 20th 2020. I am sober and loving it! Best thing I ever did.
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